Created to be His Help Meet

This week has been slow and painful for a certain someone in my life.
Jake got his wisdom teeth cut out Tuesday and has been home everyday since. We went in at 7:15 and the doctor's said that he would be done at 9:15 unless there were any difficulties. Around 10:15 I finally am able to pick him up. I have heard of stories about people who have just gotten there wisdom teeth cut out and how they act so I was a little nervous. Jake is very calm. I rarely see him act unreasonable or without control. However, when I went in there he stood up and listened intentivley to whatever the doctor was saying. She then told me that Jake is in the 1% of the population who does not react positivley to the medicine that is administered before surgery. He just wouldn't fall asleep. They ended up just working on him while he was awake and fully conscious of what they were doing to him.
I would have passed out and died.

So we have been home trying to learn to eat certain foods and watch hours of tv. I am just about finished with my stocking and will probley take a final photo when it is all done.
I made a special treat for Jake since he has been sick:

Pioneer Woman's Chicken and Rice soup!!! Oh it was so good! The sad thing is, is it actually had 6 T of butter in it and it made me sick! Twice last night I felt very sick to my stomach. You know that feeling, after you eat something too rich? I can't really remember the last time I had cooked with that much butter? But, it was so good!
Jake and I babysat a beautiful German Shepherd last weekend for some friends of ours and she did the sweetest thing for us! She came over Monday with my favorite Yankee candle (Home Sweet Home), a Starbucks coffee, a beautiful Winnie the Pooh card, and an Edible Arrangment!

How nice!!? We devoured it! When she came over to give us these precious gifts she said that she knew we ate healthy and thought this would be the perfect gift. She also thought Jake would appreciate a little bit of choc. in his life! haha.

I enjoyed the choc. too :)

I had my first meeting with my book club Monday. It was really nice. I sat there with about 8 other women, drank some hot tea, ate some biscotti, and listened to them. I mentioned before I was the youngest woman in there my at least 25-30 years so it was nice listening to these women. A lot of the struggles that are addressed in this book I haven't reached because I just absolutly love spending every moment of the day with Jake and never get tired of his sweet face, voice, or actions. 

I have learned several important facts while reading this book and have read several scriptures that I haven't ever read before that were kinda a slap in the face.

In today's world, we live in a feminist society where the women of the family sees themselves just as equal as the man. However, we were not created that way.

Some of the passages made me serisouly think:

"For the man is not of the woman; but the woman of the man. Neither was the man created for the woman; but the woman for the man" (1 Cor. 11: 8-9)

"But she that is married careth for the things of the world, how she may please her husband." (1 Cor. 7:34)

"Whoso findeth a wife findeth a good thing, and obtaineth favour of the Lord" (Proverbs 18:22)

"I know that as you read this it almost sounds like blasphemy, because it is so weird to think that your husband deserves you as his help meet. But who said anything about what he deserves? You can only realize your womanhood when you are functioning according to your created nature. To covet his role of leadership is to covet something that will not make God, you, or him happy....It is far better that the job be done poorly by your husband than to be done well by you.....men were created to be helpers of God. God made you to be a help meet to your husband so you can bolster him, making him more producive and efficient at whatever he chooses to do. You are not on the board of directors with an equal vote. You have no authority to set the agenda. But if he can trust you, he will make you his closest advisor, his confidante..-all at his discretion."

"Do you wake each morning ready to make your husband happy and blessed, to serve him to the best of your ability--to be his helper?"

This is just from one page from this devotional. Several of the sentences stirred angry emotions in me. I thought what about me? But I continued to read that it is my nature to serve my husband, that I shouldn't fight it. We are made as one. That fact keeps coming to my mind; however, God created my husband to be the leader of the household.

This fact is becoming more real to me each day as we sit and discuss our future. I may have emotional desires to do what 'i want' but Jake is the ultimate decision maker. I will trust in his decisions and follow whatever he decides. If he decides to pick up and move to the farthest places away from 'home' then I will follow and wake up each day with the purpose of being his help mate. I know that in order to be able to trust such a man, he must walk in God's path so that those choices and decisions in life honor God.

I trust my husband with our future but furthermore and most importantly I trust in God with our future.

The woman that leads this book club has continuely proclaimed that many woman will judge you or belittle you for what you learn in this study, its because there is a difference between a christian wife and a religious wife. It is because woman these days want to be found equal to their spouse when sadly this is just not true. Many woman believe that they have just the same amount of 'rights' to make decisions ahead of their husband. That is sad. Also, that makes me angry because many men don't step up to the plate. Many men decide to waste their money on things that are inappropriate for their financial means. Many men stay home and drink beer while watching the sports/hunting channel instead of taking their family to church. Many men spend their money of 'toys' with the consequences of furthering their family in more debt. In these instances, the wife is left to pick up the 'trach or bondange' and then lead their family. That is where my struggle comes out. But I have to remember that God created the man and then the woman to be his helper. Not the other way around.

I am still on the fence with some of the things that I am learning in this book, but I cannot be on the fence with the scripture that is purely written.

It is a lot to take in at my age and with the decisions Jake and I face.

*Long exhale*